Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Oasis

I have this dream night after night
That I am alone
In a desert of scorching sand
And I am so very thirsty
I walk
And I walk
And I walk
Aimlessly
It feels
As though I walk these circles
Endlessly
My thirst never quenched
And I feel as though I might
Cry
Just to drink my own tears
But my eyes are dry
My tears stolen by the sun
Before they even reach my parched lips
Hours and
Hours go by
Slow
And I begin to feel my feet drag
And just as I feel I might die with one more step
I see it
There is this incredible
Beautiful
Crystal
Waterfall
And it doesn't occur to me
How this waterfall comes to be
As I run
Unsteadily
Into its clear azure water
And I breathe in
As I inhale the scent of it
My mind comes back to me
And then I realize
I am still here
In these sheets
Right next to you
And the waterfall was your hair
And the intoxicating scent
Your skin
And I understand
You are
My oasis

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Dead Man Walking

Receive me
Turn me
And take me
Harsh
Like the vodka burning in my veins

My voice is strained
Rough with screams
And all that lay before me is a gothic scene
Like a dark opera performed for the audience that is you

You are my desperation
My emotion
My fears
And my savior
A secret devil disguised as a saint
A beautiful and perfectly painted pair of angel's wings
Protruding from beneath your stricken reality
A demon deighty hidden behind a cloak of
Intricate lies and webs of spidery deceptions

You are an addiction
And I hate you
Oh God, do I hate you!
But your kisses are so deadly sweet
Like no wine wine I've ever tasted
And the spiteful pain you inflict is oh so delicious

You steal my breath
And destroy my mind
I am a dead man
And you are a murderer


This was the first song I've ever written.

Sunday, July 8, 2007

Her

Her eyes such deep coloured chocolate
So perfect are they looking into mine
Worlds alight and it must be fate
Watching her watch me, our souls intertwine
Being here with her stops time in its tracks
The world stops spinning and now time is ours
And we can see through the wasted hours
All those wasted hours have passed
Long since forgotten in her shining eyes
It would be fine if this breath be my last
As long as this blessed love never dies
This we share together, our very own
A love so deep, no one's ever known.

Mother Earth

I am
Everything, anything, nothing
I like the wind in my hair
The sand beneath my feet
Trust, courage and honesty are most important to me
I am beautiful in all aspects
But in my beauty, there is ugliness
Perfection is overrated and unrealistic
I am nature
Imperfection
I wish all would respect me
Instead of killing me slowly
Suffocating me with dark corruption
But I know it is a hopeless dream
And I will love you still
For I am everything, anything, nothing
I am Mother Earth
And you are all my children.

Hard

I know it must be hard for you to deal
With all of these emotions you must feel
And I know it must be hard for you to hear
While you're busy battling all your fears
It must be really hard to see
Through all the wicked clouds of doubt you place around me
And I know it must be really hard for you to trust too
In me, when you can barely trust in you
And I know you must regret
The times when separation is a real threat
And I know it's really hard as well
Because it's been so hard for me to explain
Why it is with you in love, I've fell.

L'anges

Imagine, imagine
That things were different
That the rain was the tears of angels
And the thunder was their screams

Their wings are that of a dove's pride
And their eyes a purest ocean's tide
Just imagine the angels flying above us
Their tears falling upon our heads

Imagine their voices rising in bird's song
And their skin is the palest porcelain
The tips of their fingers touch like feathers
And their footsteps linger like whispers

Imagine, imagine
That angels were real

Euthanasia

Silence
Sickening and vile
Cruel, tainted bile rising
Vomiting frailty
Insulting with hatred
Ecstasy
Sensual fantasia of the mind
Pitiless and savage
Frightening porcelain souls
Spiraling into madness
Bringing delicate euthanasia

Kamikaze Lover

Silence is my canopy in
Ammicable sanity
Hidden within pockets and
Pockets of blind monogomy
Myself bound within
Inside
Beneath
A cloak of twisted blasphemy
A body within a body
A soul beneath a soul
Entertwined
Embraced
Together
You are my kamikaze lover
You'll be the death of me
You are the keyhole
And I am the key
Kiss
Touch
Feel
Between
Above
Within
My serial destroyer of
Hearts upon hearts
Adorning your walls
Trophies
At least
If my heart ends up
Another of your artworks
Placed upon your shelf
Dusty
I'll always be with you
Forever
For all your endless searching
My beautiful
Unknown

Friday, July 6, 2007

City of the Damned

A shadow moves with grace
Slow and confident
Within the darkness
Of this street
Long and winding
Like a frigid vein
In this disgusting city
There are no treasures left here
Many dreams have found their graves here
And none who settle here
Will leave
This city
Is of course
The city
Of
The damned

Snowflakes

Your touches are like snowflakes
So soft they make me shiver
You deceive me with their faithless gentleness
For a moment I believe this is genuine
Your poise
And your sensuality
Ensnare me so transparently
And my body will betray me
When your snowflakes fall upon me
They will seduce me and expose me
They'll reveal and ruin all I am
When they're finally finished
You'll look to me with unadulterated disdain
In those faultless eyes of your's
You'll look bitterly
Your snowflake touches lingering upon my form
You'll be ruthless, I know
Merciless, I'm sure
In your silent torture of me
And you'll violate me whole
Send me to scorch within the brutal fires of your tempered arrogance
Intoxicate me with your agonizing chaos
Incinerate my soul within your revolting indulgences
Your elegance pollutes my body
And your snowflakes now defile me
I never thought that such searing desire
Could become so frigid
But then I always knew
You've always been
Just like the snowflakes of your touches
Frosted and indifferent.

Sense of Self

There is a voice inside myself
That no one else can hear
It shouts and screams all day through
Hoping to be heard.

There's also someone inside myself
That no one else can see
They run and jump hysterically
Trying to be seen.

This is the person I hide inside myself
To keep them safe from hurt
This person runs and jumps and screams
Pleading to be free.

Yes,
It's true
This person I harbor deep within myself
This person must be me.

Secrets

Whispers in the darkness
Slight breathes
Cool air
Wind breezes
Whispers slipping away
Lost on deaf ears
Secrets

Sacred

Sacred,
Porcelain desire,
Throbbing in want and need.
Deep, velvet breath, warm and perfect.
I devour your lips with my own.
Tasting of delicious honey nectar,
Whispering like rain; amazing.
Falling swiftly into shadows,
Tainted in sweetly poisoned dreams,
Obscured by treason and outrage,
Prosecuted by a lover's touch.
A broken moment,
Lost in failure and treachery,
Shattered,
Splintered,
Frayed,
And,
Forgotten.

Only One

My heart is torn and bleeding
My soul is dead and gone
How could you do this to me
You were my only one

Night

My mind is calm
My breathing soft
But my dreams are hardly pacified
They're filled with you
You saturate my fantasies
Your eyes
Your lips
Caress me
Only affectionately
Within my secrets
My hopes
Wishes
They become my new reality
These moments don't last long enough
This night is far too short
My hands are already working
To unbind me from my bodily trappings
My fingertips close around myself
I bite my lips to withstand these smoldering desires
But I cannot stop myself from indulging
Throwing my head back in my passion
Imagining these hands are your's instead of mine
My thoughts evoke such erotic illusions
Arousing
Awakening my parched soul
Flooding it with fearless pleasures
And in this instant I am your's
And you will never know
The intensity you taint me with
And I can no longer delay
The inpending epitome
Of gratification
And I scream
Your name the only on my tongue
And I lay wanton and gliscening
Breathing you
As night begins to grey
The light of dawn

My Love

You are the breathe within my lungs
The ground beneath my feet
The blood within my veins
And the voice caught in my throat
You are the wind blown through my hair
And the heart that beats within my chest
Alas, you are my love,
My life.

Invisible

There they are again
Strangers
They intrude within me
Itching beneath my complexion
They slide into me
Rough
Angrily thrusting deep
And deeper still
Until I am broken
Bleeding secretively
They tear me apart from inside
Wracking my frail body with their pain
Pushing their hatred into me
Forcing it into my very being
Pulsing through my veins
Consuming
Until there is nothing left of who I once was
They will not
Do not notice
They never have
Or will
Because to them I am just another among many
Invisible

Inner Minds

A flaccid ocean stretches
Outwards from my body
Losing itslef in broken imagery
A photograph shattered
A million shards of perforated memories
Mirrored destruction in my own eyes
Floating atop the water's edges
A silver stream of forced rationality
A reality fading
To the fogged recesses of my secret mind
The rest purged of any fantasy
Morbid and dull within the walls
Of an empty soul.

Some days the ocean is not so calm
With wicked waves
Thrashing with enraged brutality
Inside my sordid thoughts
Sound and sight withered from my senses
Forsaking only touch and taste
Surreal and concentrated
Dream sequences play around me
As if I am a no one in my own mind
Invisible, a ghost
And in this moment
I am
Happy.

Fate

Our lips have never touched
Our eyes have never met
Our hands have never roamed
But our souls have always known
That we would someday meet
Even if not we see
Each other
We will know
That we were meant to be
Forever
You and me.

Drowning

Coolness surrounds my body
I float light
And sink heavily all at once
I can see clearly above me
As I fall deeper within
This cool haven, silent
My mind is filled with rolling thunder
My lungs burning in my chest
I breathe in the wet around me
Letting it fill my lungs to the very brim
Soothing
I don't struggle
But merely drift
As I watch the darkness close in upon me
The light becoming nothing more than a pinprick
In a world of black
For moments I hear nothing, but silence
The dark night seeping into my vision
And then it is over
And I am deaf
Blind
And mute
Completely weightless
I am no more

Angel Dust

Sweet honey nectar of pain
Pouring slow and tantilizing through my sluggish veins
Whispering sugar secrets under my skin
Tempting
Sweeping me from reality
Playfully
Seizing my muscles with youthful strength
Perplexing my mind
And siphoning bits of life from my tattered soul
Sucking anxiously
Awaiting patiently
The bitter taste of me
Numbing my thoughts
Licking my wounds
Bleeding me dry
Leaking the poisoned syrup of my blood
Corrupting
Seducing
Devouring